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Where did the first month fo 2010 go? For me, it started with a week of the flu, which lead to my not being ready for classes to start the second week of January. I've been plahying catch up all month. I knew when I sat down at my computer that it had been awhile since my last post. I had to do a double-take when I saw that it's been over a month since I last wrote anything here. I don't make new year's resolutions, but I'm hoping to be more regular about writing in the coming year. Starting now, not on Jan. 1st, obviously...
So what's new? I had written last year about all the changes in my life, and that I felt that waiting to move forward with becoming a deacon was a call from God to stop and do some other work. Janurary has been the start of my living out this calling. I went back to full-time teaching and am leaving the administrative work that has been taking all my time and energy. The new person JJC hired to take over these tasks is wonderful, and also named Kristin! We're joking that we found the perfect person with the perfect name for the job. Now that the work is in someone else's capable hands, I am focusing on teaching. I had forgotten what I challenge it is for me to learn 85 new names and faces in just a matter of a week or two!
The wonderful part of this change is that my teaching life has expanded beyond my secular classrooms at JJC. I started leading Bible Study once a week at Trinity on Wednesday mornings. I wasn't sure how many people would come, but as I told Fr. Charlie, I'm making a committment to learn the Scriptures better, so if no one comes, it is time for me to sit and read and think about God's word. But we've been blessed to have a table-full of thoughtful, intelligent people for the first three weeks. We're reading and discussing the upcoming Sunday's readings, so we have time to think, pray and digest the lessons before hearing them again on Sunday morning. And Fr. Charlie gets time with us to hear our thoughts and start thinking about his sermon. It's been great with wonderful questions, great talks, and a sense of fellowship with our learning. I am very hopeful that the meetings will continue to be fruitful for many weeks and months to come.
Another activity that I started is a quarterly book group. We met this weekend on Saturday to talk about William Young's The Shack. Again, I wasn't sure how many people would come, but the conference table was full. We had some critical comments about how humans have tried to capture God in a book or painting, and how these works always fall short, but that in striving to explain God, we get some new perspectives. We talked about the ways Young tried to explain the reasons why God acts, why we have to wait to gain complete understanding, and why we really, really don't want to be the judges of others. By the end of the hour-long discussion, everyone agreed that the group was a good idea, and to have our next book be Three Cups of Tea. Yeay for breathing life into new avenues of learning!
If I had any questions about whether I made the right decision in waiting to enter further into deaconal training, those were wiped away at the book group. As I was brewing coffee for the group, a friend and fellow parishoner came in to see if I needed any help. She's been coming to the Bible Study group, too, and I asked her how it was going for her. She said it was fine, and then came over and touched my arm. She looked me in the face, and said how grateful she is that I'm doing all that I am at Trinity to help people learn about the Bible and think about their spiritual lives, that these times of learning should be a part of our lives, and that they've been missing at our church for a long time. As I was driving home after the discussion, I heard her words again and I knew they weren't her words alone. Mack, the main character in The Shack, may have had God to talk to face-to-face, but I know God was talking to me through my friend. I'm doing what He wants me to do.
Now that I'm more on track with grading my papers at work, and finally regulated to my new schedule of early morning Bible study, I'll be checking in here more regularly. I met with my spiritual director, Carol, this past week, and she said that I shouldn't worry at all abnout the deaconhood. The diocese has a hold on all new canidates for the next year, so I can go about my calling at church without any thoughts about further calling. But I am also open and willing to do what God wants of me. We'll see where He leads...
